This is going to be a long ass post. There are many...many...MANY photos. A whole lot of photos, I'm not kidding guys. Click at your own risk.

( Fangs up, Cobra style... )

And here's a parting gift:

Cobra Starship: Ryland/Alex
Bandom 100

001.	Blue	002.	Red	003.	Black	004.	White	005.	Green
006.	Grey	007.	Orange	008.	Khaki	009.	Bronze	010.	Gold
011.	Silver	012.	Thunder	013.	Rain	014.	Snow	015.	Fire
016.	Water	017.	Air	018.	Earth	019.	Summer	020.	Spring
021.	Winter	022.	Fall	023.	Birthday	024.	Anniversary	025.	Wedding
026.	Party	027.	Children	028.	Death	029.	Hate	030.	Love
031.	Broken	032.	Passion	033.	Magic	034.	Fixed	035.	Family
036.	Friends	037.	Food	038.	Drink	039.	Schol	040.	Work
041.	Home	042.	Holiday	043.	Alcohol	044.	Drugs	045.	Doctor
046.	Sick	047.	Trust	048.	Bed	049.	Write	050.	Draw
051.	Lust	052.	Envy	053.	Humour	054.	Angst	055.	Pain
056.	Health	057.	Excited	058.	Peaceful	059.	Tired	060.	Naughty
061.	Nervous	062.	Gloomy	063.	Thoughtful	064.	Calm	065.	Romantic
066.	Rainbow	067.	Song	068.	Music	069.	Drama	070.	Jealous
071.	Boys	072.	Girls	073.	Old	074.	Young	075.	New
076.	Meetings	077.	Animals	078.	Pets	079.	Muppets	080.	Cartoons
081.	Hands	082.	Eyes	083.	Mouth	084.	Nose	085.	Ears
086.	Wings	087.	Horns	088.	Flowers	089.	Play	090.	Dance
091.	Professional	092.	Agent	093.	Headphones	094.	Handicap	095.	Pictures
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.

(I know this is a repost for some of you, but I had to do one unlocked for the community I'm in.)

Tonight I kept forgetting to breathe.

I chatted with la madre, and it would seem I am definitely going to Canada in April to spend Spring Break with my lovaaaah. I just...there are no words to describe how friggin excited I am, and caps lock and exclamation points can't even do it justice. I love when you kid about something happening, and then it really happens. So, SO much.

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Okay, this is me stalling so I don't read the book I should be reading:

15 things I wish I could say to you.

1. List fifteen things you wish you could say to people but can't.

2. Don't say who they are.

3. Never discuss it again.
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1. I think we might have had something, even if it was just for a day.
2. I love you so insanely much, but sometimes the things you say make me want to slap you.
3. I still haven't forgiven you completely.
4. I miss you. Everything would be so much better if you were still around.
5. I wasn't kidding either.
6. My world would be a better place if you lived nearby. Even in the same state.
7. I'm still in love with you, and I wish I could just let it go.
8. I miss Disney days, going to theme parks together and acting like little kids.
9. You're not the same person I admired in high school.
10. I'm not kidding when I say you're one of my best friends. You make my world a better place just by being in it, as ghey as that sounds.
11. I don't think I need you anymore.
12. It drives me nuts that you barely work for anything and you still lead this amazing, exciting life.
13. I really, truly wish you would find God. He loves you, and he's waiting for you. He'll always be right there, and I hope someday you see that.
14. You're my hero. I know things are tough for you, and life just doesn't seem fair, but the wit and patience you handle everything with make me proud to be related to you.
15. I miss being friends with you. I don't know why you changed like you did, but I miss the person you were.

Reading that back, it seems emo, lol. I didn't mean for it to be, I promise.

APRIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My family at their Halloween party in NPR.
( Jealous? )
Anyway, the party was fun. I was the only one not drinking, but not everyone was smashed and they were all the legal age, so whatev. Gave a boy my phone number, so yay.

Soooo here I am, getting ready for the Halloween party tonight, and I figured I'd post some pictures. Blurry photos FTW! Oh, I'm Jessica Rabbit. Haha.

( I'm not bad, I'm just drawn that way. )

I got my noooose did, and I am happy I did so. I missed having it pierced. Anyway, here are picatures. It's still a little red and I look like death, but oh well.

( Dirty pretty things right behind this door. )

OH HAY! Comedy Central is showing Shaun of the Dead this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I still feel shitty, but I also feel like an idiot for yesterday's entry. And I'm still coughing.

Tonight I need sushi and shopping before I come back to study.

I just fucking hate tonight. I'm tired, and I'm sick. I'm disappointed, let down, and I feel inadequate. I miss home, I miss Allison, I miss bubble baths and being able to cry in bed for long periods of time without waking my roommate up.

If there's a man out there for me he better hurry up and find me. I'm tired of being alone and I'm starting to lose faith. I'm hurt and I'm confused and I feel so fucking lonely. I'm absolutely aching for someone to kiss me. I'm sick of being patient and trusting others with my fate. I hate that I'm doubting. I hate that I'm not as smart as people think I am. I wish I were charming. I wish I had the balls to go searching, instead of waiting for someone to come to me.

I really thought there might be something there. Serves me right for getting my hopes up.

I just need to go to sleep and start over tomorrow.

This weekend was insane amounts of fun. For now I'm just posting pictures, so to make a long story short I spent the weekend with my BFFE and we went to Raise the Roof.

( Wackiness ensues. )
So yeah, this weekend was amazing, God is awesome and sets incredible things in motion. Make sure you all check out www.amongthethirsty.com, they're an amazing band.

It's very hard seeing the person who brought you to God doubt Him. Please pray for Allison, she's confused and she needs the extra love.

AMY SEDARIS IS ON EARL! Oh man, Amy, I have missed you so.

Okaaay, so first of all, here's the last four songs on my music survey dealie.

12. To the End-My Chemical Romance
13. New Killer Star-David Bowie
14. Crimson and Clover-Tommy James and the Shondells
16. Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes)-Edison Lighthouse

And apparently, the rumor that's spreading around is that I turn 19 tomorrow. Well good for me, I say.

Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 20 songs that play
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from
Step 4: Bold the songs when someone guesses correctly

1. So who's this other guy you got? What other rubes are ridin' hot shot sugar? I could have sworn you said before, no more, for sure, what'd I believe you for?
2. He told me, "Let the children lose it, let the children use it, and all the children boogy."
3. So wear me like a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down I'll watch you choke.
4. Tired boys with wired eyes exposing imperfections, to the naked eye we're perfect, even if we don't look back again...6. It started at a bus stop in the middle of nowhere. Sitting beside me was a man with no hair.
7. At least I've got the sense to sense what's coming, and realize that good things never come to those who wait to long...
8. Poor old Johnny Ray, sounded sad upon the radio, he moved a million hearts in mono.
9. Now honey you can't blame her for what her mama gave her. It ain't right to hate her for working that money maker...
10. But then you wake up in the morning with your head on fire and your eyes too bloody to see. Go on and cry in your coffee but don't come bitching to me.
11. And though you're dead and gone believe me, your memory will carry on...
12. Took a train down to New Orleans cause they shot me full of ephedrine. This is how we like to do it on the murder scene, can we settle up the score?
13. All the corners of the buildings, who but we remember these? The sidewalks and trees? I'm thinking now...
14. Oh...now I don't hardly know her...but I think I could love her...
15. LET'S GET THESE TEEN HEARTS BEATING FASTER, FASTER!
16. She ain't got no money her clothes are kinda funny her hair is kinda wild and free...
17. Well if you want it come and get it, for crying out loud. The love that I was giving you was never in doubt. Let go of your head, let go of your heart, and feel it now...
18. Search myself and everyone to see where we went wrong. There's no one left to finger, there's no one here to blame. There's no one left to talk to, honey and there ain't no one to buy our innocence...
19. And she'll promise you more then the Garden of Eden, then she'll carelessly cut you and laugh while you're bleedin'...
20. They took the credit for your second symphony. Rewritten by machine on new technology. And now I understand the supernova scene.

So, I'm trying to commit myself to posting in my LJ more often, even if I have nothing good to say. I'll just pick random things to talk about, I guess. Hahaha.

I like walking by the Student Union. All of these tents and booths are set up for the different clubs, and everything is just so lively. And it's always different. Today people were swing dancing in the middle of the walkway, last week there was a huge debate over the pro-life camp showing posters of aborted babies. Stuff like this makes me feel like I'm really in college, living the experience.

Em and I finally got our air conditioning fixed. It's freezing right now, I love it. My earrings feel like ice on my neck.

Um...what else? Oh, Emily made a new UCF friend through myspace, he came over last night. He was a cocky bastard and I wanted to hit him. It's sad, cause he seems like he would be a really nice guy, but he's a drama kid. Yeah, so he puts on this whole act that makes me want to hit him. Oh well. I'll just focus on Ladyjeans, heehee.

I think that's it for today. I need to get food, it's perogie day! Woo!

Peace, my droogs.

DISNEY MOOD THEME! Once again, Lynds has gone completely out of her way to do something for me, and I appreciate it soso much. You heard it here, folks. classicawesome pwns my life.